My Thouts..My Life..My World..

2007-03-09T03:15:00.000-08:00

will you stand by me
will you hold on to me and never let me go
will you be by my side even when the story grows old

2007-02-20T17:51:00.000-08:00

just to let u guys noe I'm still alive and kicking.. hahs

will update a lil of Valentines Day and Chinese New Year soon i guess..

MY BIRTHDAY SOON !! wee~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!

2007-02-08T23:54:00.000-08:00

what happens if you know the outcome of certain issues is not what you want or expect ? do you give it up or do you change ur expectation? Most of the time expectations will just lead to a whole lot of disappointment. it just seems that what I forsee in the future are goanna be very different frm what it is now. what does it all mean? what would be the best way I should take?

why do i keep having negative thoughts these days? why am i so afriad of the future. I ought to be looking forward to it but as I'm drawing closer and closer to graduation the fear seems to be gradually increasing.

i have always reprimanded myself for being such a curious person. many a times i stumble on stuffs that I should not even know or find out. not once not twice but countless times. its's always all these stuffs that gets me so emotional. thouts starts to run wild and it triggers all my unhappiness. Curosity really kills.

Uncertainity arises...

sigh~

2007-01-31T19:31:00.001-08:00

Why isit so hard to find you people when i need company and a listening ear ??

2007-01-28T16:50:00.000-08:00

It's been loOoOnNngGg.. and I'm finally back.. happier and crappier too.. WHY? coz FYP is finally O-V-E-R !!!

Yippie.. no more staying back in school till late.. no more nightmares about codings..no more stressful days.. 15 more days and I'm outta tis shitty school.. double happiness =DD

Today's the 28th so Happy Birthday Stephanie!! 28th also means it's exactly 1 month to my birthday. yippie!! I have always look forward to the 28th of feb every year coz to me birthday is sucha impt day in my life. This year had better be a good wan I hope. =S

Went Bishan Stadium a day after FYP ended coz I told myself I must start to exercise after FYP and I'm so glad I'm disciplined enuf. heh..

FYP MatesSs

Mr "bf" and I

Jun Song and I

Bon and I

The MEN in my team. lols

one of the random days we were slacking at the cafe

after my jogging session and his gym-ing session

2007-01-15T18:32:00.000-08:00

omg.. I saw many pretty clothes online and I wanna get them all !!! *wails*

hmm..can some kind soul out there get it all for me or donate $$$ to me pls.. lols

freezing cold in the lab and I'm all alone.. how pathetic man..

I love Jun Wen's huge Oakley bag.. I WAN !!!

2007-01-14T16:52:00.000-08:00

THINK POSITIVE JANE !!!

2007-01-13T01:53:00.000-08:00

I just dun seem to be myself these days.. I haven been speaking much recently and I prefer being coped up all alone. I guess I need lots lots time and space to think of lotsa lotsa tinks. Thousand and one things going through my mind and I just can't seem to stop pondering even over trival matters.

I have been doing fine all these while but I just feel like isolating myself away from the whole world. I wanna bury mysef in a hole and not face anyone. I just dun feel like entertaining, talking, interacting, communicating with anyone. How I wish I could just lie on bed with love songs playing all day long.

2007-01-07T12:43:00.000-08:00

Couldn't get to sleep the entire night yesterday and therefore I'm up so early on a Sunday morning. Even accompanied mummy for Sunday morning marketing. Spent the entire of yesterday rotting at home being a potato coach watching DVDs and stuffs. Feels really weird to be home all day on a Saturday.

Caught 2 movies recently; Night at the Museum and Confessions of Pain. Both movies were great and I caught both movies a day after another, talk about how boring Singapore is.

Not much peeps is online to entertain me =( Probably another day of watching Dvds at home.

2007-01-06T02:18:00.000-08:00

Celebrated my dearest Cynthia Birthday on the 29th.

Headed to The Wine Company for a lil get together wif the girls

Headed to St James next and it was really a great disappointment for all of us. Doubt I will ever set foot into it again. The crowd was way too old and the music wasn't happening at all. But managed to see so many of my ex-school mates and it was a good thing coz I haven seen most of them since I left sec school.

Amazingly I still manage to make my way down to Happy Daze even after the mixtures of drinks.. but the moment I got home I was feeling all dizzy and even had a hang over the next day. Was so bad till I stoned the whole afternoon but I still manage to get my ass out of the house to get Birthday pressie for Louis's sis den headed to Happy Daze to celebrate her birthday. Didn't drink much that day coz I was so turn off by the sight of beer. =x

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Got home not long ago after sending SY off at the airport. Emo emo man but glad at least I managed to spend some time with him last nite. Still as crappy as before and we did lotsa retarded things at the foot of my block in the middle of the night.

Retarded me in SY's shirt,cap and boots..lols..

Meanie him wanted me to put on all this and keep laughing coz he said i look like a fool.

to get even I got him to wear my slip ons too. lols. he look damn retarded too la.

I have this pic to threaten him too.. lols. He told me if he ever make it big over at UK I could sell this pic for millions.. lols.

Well well.. i really hope that things would be fine for him there and he will make it big some day.

Salute to you Mr DJ. Come back soon.. 4 years seems soo long.. I'll miss you..

Alrighty..it time to concentrate on my conference call wif xiu and sarah now.. tata

2006-12-29T00:48:00.000-08:00

A Christmas post is long overdue and I haven posted it up yet..

Presenting to you my Christmas Pressie ...

Remember I wrote an entry a few weeks back that I wish for a bear from the Build-a-Bear Workshop? I've finally gotten it !! and it came along with a birth certificate dated 25th December 2006. =) Louis gave it a name too but I shall not reveal it here. hehes.

The only thing that I missed out is the process of creating the bear coz it came as a surprise for me cos we agreed not to exchange gifts this Christmas. I still remember I was on the phone wif him an hour ago on the eve of Christmas eve just to ensure that he didn't get anything for me and he even said that he don't have the time to get anything for me. After we hung up, I made my way to Happy Daze to meet him and friends. He appeared normal so I wasn't suspicious of him at all until we headed to his place after that. He dashed into his room upon entering his house and closed the door immediately. Got into his room and saw 2 big paper bags at the corner of his room. The first paper bag contained a box where my bear bear was inside and in another bag was the closet of the bear and he got the bear a soccer jersery with boot and gloves.. sooo cutttee cannns.. haha.. was really really very happy ..

Him being so sweet, he captured down every single process in creating the bear..

Pump It!!

Almost there . A heart that is placed inside

Fluffing up done. My bear talks too

Him cleaning my bear

As I turn my head around, I see it lying comfortably on my bed

thanks darling.. i love it and apperciate it alot.

2006-12-28T05:58:00.000-08:00

I'm supposed to post a Christmas entry but I guess that can wait for the moment..

I'll do up a post for tonite or rather morning and i'll head for the sack. Tomorrow will be a brand new day and a brand new start for me. I know its not 2007 yet. but I guess I really need to change..

I've just realised how lousy a person I am all these while. I have been really immatured in my thinking, wanting things my way and I've always been really stubborn. Its really hard for a person to change and to become perfect is impossible. I guess in the past I have always set a standard for my partner and I've always wanted my him to do things I want and I like. I've realised how selfish I have been all these while. Never expect anything from anyone because you're most likely to be disappointed. I've always thout I can always have things my way but today I realised all these all just illusions. I have been making myself so miserable for the past weeks and months. Acting crappy and happy but feeling really joyful is the last thing on my mind. There are realli too many things for me to handle, to settle and to think about. I thought there would bound to be someone out there who would understand me but I noe its just a pack of lies. No one would ever understand what I'm going through. People around me have been repeating again and again that they have their own sets of problems and they have alot to think about but I guess each and everyone of us would always think that our problem is the biggest of them all. But we are so wrong.

I've wanted to be so much better than anyone else. I want to be the best daughter/sister/friend/girlfriend but I know it will never happen. I've been told thousand and one time that I always think about negative stuffs .. I wish I can control my thoughts, who doesn't want to be a happy bunny? I wish I could be a carefree person and laugh my day through. I wish I would not be affected my any issues. But I know it will never happen to me. I would never become someone I want to be.

But I know its time for me to learn the hard way.. It's time for me to learn to be a better person for everyone, it's time for me to learn to be independent, it's time for to do things that I should do.

I've regretted alot of my actions but I guess nothing would be the same again. Who understands and who cares anyway? I really want to try hard to be a better person. I really hope I'll be able to do it.

It hurts so much yet I can't do anything, who can I turn to, who will be there for me. Will it be you?

Give me the strength to be a better person.

Enuf said.. after my sleep, I really hope things will be a lil different. Maybe I'm just deciving myself again..

May tomorrow or rather later be a better day for me please..

to that someone : I'm really sorry for my actions, my words and everything. I know I have been a great disappointment for you. I know nothing would be the same anymore. All I want to say is I'm really SORRY

2006-12-25T06:01:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone..

Back from Happy daze but I'm not feeling too good. I thought it would be a enjoyable day for me but I guess I was wrong. Notink happened to me but I'm getting too emo after the drinks. Its my first time blogging at this hour when I'm suppose to get some rest. I just can't rest my mind..too many thinks going through my head and I wish I have some pills to pop so I can just sleep my way through. It feels so weird to be wide awake at tis hour..

I seriously dunnoe what I want, what I'm actually seeking for and what my future holds.

Get me out from this misery..

2006-12-16T14:47:00.000-08:00

Met up wif Sarah darling on thur nite for drinks @ Happy Daze. It was good quality time spent with her coz I finally poured out all my troubles to her. Been finding someone who was understanding enuf to listen to all that I have to say. It really feels good after sharing all my true feelings which no one else noes. Sent her safely to the bus stop and went back in for a couple of drinks. Had a short conversation wif David as well as Mel and it really made me ponder on alot of tinks. I guess I had always been afriad of changes and challenges and that was what held me back for so long. Confidence is what I have been lacking all these while. Spoke to them about some thouts and they were all very supportive and encouraging. Mel shared with me one of his past experience and that triggered alot of thouts within me. I guess that's the benefit of meeting new people of all ages and from different walks of life.

Finally met up with Yan Ming yesterday nite after sooOOo long.. Headed to Liquid Kitchen for drinks and chatted the nite away.. Thanks for the company dude. Thanks for always being there for me when I need a listening ear. Sushi soon ok ...

xtremely ugly pic of me and my hair sux big time. I look so AUNTIE wif my slightly longer fringe. That's why I decided to make a trip down to the hairdresser today. lols.

Saturday seems so boring nowadays. =(

2006-12-13T16:29:00.000-08:00

Tanning @ Sentosa yesterday and the sun was scorching hot. I'm lucky enuf not to get burnt which I usually will be. Hoping to go there again next week.

Poped by Vivo after that and I went into this shop 'Build-A-Bear Workshop'. Read it from the papers some time back and I finally get to go in. Everything is there is so cute. You get to choose which bear you want and you even get to stuff it on your own. Best part is when you get to choose the clothes you want it to wear. Saw alot of cute clothes like bikini, jumper,Christmas suit etc.. they even have very cute caps and hats with those tiny tiny shoes of different styles. At the end, you even get to print a Birth Certificate for it. But definitely very costly. =( sigh.. i wanna get a bear of my own too..

All of a sudden I wanna get so many thinks... arghh. VITAMIN M!!

2006-12-10T02:43:00.000-08:00

Overdue pics that were taken @ Happy Daze ..

I've just realised only Sarah and I look red after the drinks..the rest looks perfectly fine.. lols

just came back from Bishan Park after a couple of drinks and I'm feeling a lil tired now.. oh..and Man Utd beat Man City.. WooHoo..

time to wash up..

2006-12-07T15:14:00.000-08:00

Went down Happy Daze 2 days in a row. Nice place to relax .. glad to know some ppl too =D .

I guess in the past I was always living in the comfort of my own shell for far too long.It was after tis period of time when I started to interact and socialise more and I realised I had lose out so much during these years. Meeting new people makes me learn alot more abt life and living. Guess its time for me to do some serious thinking and planning. Definitely wun wan to have any regrets in life.

Anways, holidays have officially started and I just came home from school after my Professional Profiling Presentation. WeeE~ So glad it's over =D 1 down. Its time to concentrate on my CE points, FYP and soon enough I will be leaving school. Future seems uncertain but still I have to face reality and do something about it.

Gave Zouk a miss last nite though my cousin was persuading me all the while to go celebrate his birthday. Now..I'm still deciding whether I should join Zhu and Cyn @MOS tis Friday.. Also gotten an invitation from Ryan a few days back to go Zouk Out but i'm still contemplating whether its a wise choice. Suppose to meet Steph for shopping today but I guess I'm too tired plus I need more vitamin M. lols

My house's super noisy now coz my parents decided to redo the Kitchen since we're done with the upgrading. Oh..did I mentioned I painted my parents room 2 weeks back and it was the first time painting in my nineteen years. lols.

Wad a boring entry but its been quite some time since i type a relatively decent entry. haha

will post the pics when i get from Sarah.. *hint hint* lols

2006-12-04T22:41:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELEATED 20th BIRTHDAY SARAH !!!

Had the best night last Saturday. Had a surprise birthday celebration for our Sarah Darling.. Manage to get Javern to trick her to Cosy Bay and ta-dah we were there and she got a shock of her life. So glad she was happy thru out. =D

Had a couple of drinks plus some finger food before ..

we gave her another surprise ...

As Javern, Eunice and Louis were all driving.. we decided to head to Mount Faber as it was a waste to end the nite so early..

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2006-12-02T17:32:00.000-08:00

its a boring sat laaa.

shall update my wish list soon coz Christmas is round the corner.. lols

I WANNA MEET SANTA CLAUSE

2006-11-28T20:39:00.000-08:00

HUMANS ARE FCUKING CONTRIDICTING

2006-11-26T14:23:00.000-08:00

all of a sudden, i feel sad ..
that feeling that was once gone ..
its back once again..

will it stay on or will it go

sigh

2006-11-21T22:54:00.000-08:00

I hate being sick but yet I'm all alone to fend for myself.
I hate having chills all of a sudden coz all I can do is to hide behind the comforter
I hate having sore throat coz it makes me wanna keep my mouth shut for the entire day
I hate having headache coz it makes me wanna bang my head against the wall

Shower me some care and love

In need of Dr. Miracle to cure me..

2006-11-18T21:20:00.000-08:00

DAMN BORED LAAAA ...

$$$$$$$

2006-11-17T23:17:00.000-08:00

Caring for me doesn't necessarily mean incessant scolding, nagging.

ENUF OF ALL THESE SHYTES !

2006-11-15T07:33:00.000-08:00

Its a wednesday and I'm up at 7.33am.

How weird.

2006-11-13T19:17:00.000-08:00

I hate having to cry every single nite
I hate to drink my nite away
I hate to find out things which I dun wish to noe
I hate having to put up a strong front when my frens ask abt things
I hate to face reality

I simply hate it !

i'm tired..really exhausted

2006-11-11T17:34:00.000-08:00

loads of pics left to be uploaded but i'm simply too lazy..

enjoyed mysef loads wif my girls @ plasma last sat. been a looooooonnnnng time since I last saw them.

=D

2006-11-11T17:25:00.000-08:00

2006-11-11T08:25:00.000-08:00

its amazing that I'm awake at 8am on a Saturday morning. tell me who gets tipsy but yet wide awake in less than a few hours. i wanna get back to slp yet i cant coz there are realli too many things that constantly keeps my mind occupied.

i have been putting up a strong front but deep down no one understands what i'm going through. it's not that i have been damn pathetic or wad. juz cant seem to figure out some issues. probably it doesnt make any difference but yet the curosity in me realli makes me wanna know the real truth.

arghhh..

better post ltr..

2006-10-08T04:30:00.000-07:00

sometimes holding on to something so dear to you can be agonizing.. the sorrows and despondency makes you want to run away from this world of misery...

2006-10-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you..
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you..
i don't know...

should i stay or should i go ?

2006-09-29T14:34:00.000-07:00

IT'S FRIDAY !!!

been looking forward to the weekends..

yippie.. yippie..

I'm a happy girl once again.. lols

2006-09-20T15:33:00.000-07:00

School's starting tml ... and I dread going to school... =(

I wish the weekends would come soon coz I'm loooooking forward to it =D

2006-09-17T23:14:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that there are somethings which are best left undiscovered yet you want to know the truth badly? You know the truth hurts but yet you are determined to find out the real answer?

I wish I was naive enough, now I understand why people usually says its good to just close one eye and pretend nothing has happened.

Somethings are better left unsaid.

R.I.P

2006-09-08T14:49:00.000-07:00

FAT AND MISERABLE !!!

WTFFFFF !!!

stop adding on pressure on to me its not motivating me at all..

JUST JOLLY WELL LET ME DIE LA!!!

2006-09-06T19:15:00.000-07:00

Was on my way to Tampines Mall with my mum this afternoon and I slip and fell just because some inconsiderate ass threw a red and white strip Campino sweet on the ground without me realising.I actually fell like a clumsy ballerina and both my legs landed at a very awkward position. I must have looked damn unglamorous man...

These few weeks have been so unlucky for me !! Just when I thought that my right foot has recovered after I sprained it a few weeks back, something unfortunate like that has to happen to me. Am I cursed or wad..

The wound on my right knee hurts like shyte.

sigh

2006-09-06T13:15:00.000-07:00

Just a random entry coz I'm bored..

Went for a jog early in the morning wif dear again, had breakfast together, hung the clothes out to dry, read the papers and I'm sitting right in front of the com wif no other plans in mind. Just plain lazy to do anithing.

It's been a long time since I caught a movie, but there's no show that interest me right now. I wanna go on a holiday but i doubt i have enough cash.

There was an article that caught my attention on "Mind Your Body" the weekly health companion that comes with the The Straits Times. The caption reads " How to make those kisses last a lifetime". It was basically talking about goal setting, planning, preparing between a couple and I quite agree with what was mentioned in there.

" For many couples, deciding to get married signals the start of a roller-coaster ride of emotions - despair at not getting the venue of choice, joy at finding the perfect dress or suit, irritation at having to invite many people they have never even met and relief at everything coming together on their Big Day."

" Falling in love is such a small part of a long-term relationship and tends to blind us to the difference in each other"

Agree ?

2006-09-05T16:13:00.000-07:00

Gotton a new skin..one thing down in my to-do list. Anyway this drawing was from Jimmy Liao's book. I've came across several of his book and all his cartoons are realli realli nice.

Attended my sis graduation last Friday @ SIM. Am proud of her coz she graduated with a distinction. gosh..when can I be like her ?

Took over 300 plus pics that two days and that bonding session definitely was great. Headed to esplanade's Haagen Daz for fondue on saturday morning, esplanade's main entrance and rooftop and the last destination was the previous supreme court @ the padang. I'm looking forward to see the pics. Credits to Chris for being the photogrpher and the so damn good professional camera.

Alrighty.. time for some quick bites before my "personal trainer" ask me out for a jog.

2006-08-28T15:48:00.000-07:00

I love my jie jie laaaaasssss ....

Going to Lee Hom concert this october wif her again!! *yippie* Her treat again and she's still going for the best seats. When Lee Hom was here 4 years back, I remember we was seated or rather stood at the first row just after the celebs and I was directly behind Ah-Ben that handsome Channel U guy.hehe. My eyes had such a nice treat tat nite. lols.

Thanx for the treat and sacrificing 3 hours of ur sleeping time just to book the tix.

I LOVE YOU JIE JIE !!!!!

* Lee Hom's Concert in Taipei Album is running in my Hi-fi set nw..gawddd*

2006-08-27T16:50:00.000-07:00

Honeyz birthday dinner @ Crystal Jade

Followed by drinks @ Balcony & Alley Bar

2006-08-13T16:35:00.000-07:00

FANTABULOUS DAY/NITE YESTERDAY !!!

-Suntec,Marina Square,Millenium Walk,Fireworks,theLoof,Clark Quay,Boat Quay,Orchard

Love's Beautiful.. So Beautiful

=D

2006-08-08T11:33:00.000-07:00

FYP is offical over for me.. had my presentation yesterday and it wasn't as bad as I had expected.

Had a good rest today..never had such a peaceful sleep for months and it feels great. The only tink is that I've not recovered from my bad cough and my frequent headach.. =[

Anyway..tml's National Day and I'm looking forward to watch the parade on TV with dearie since its been 2 since since we caught in live on TV. The fifth month we got together, we manage to watch the parade and the fireworks as well. The 2nd time, he was involved in the National Day Parade itself and last year he was assigned road marshalling duties and I was there with him so I missed the NDP.

Wanted to catch the fireworks display by the Singapore team today but dearie had lesson
=[ Hopefully will be able to catch the next 2 .

Realised its time for me to change my blogskin and get some tinks updated as well.. but i'm soooo lazy..

Shall catch up on things that I've been missing out on from now on..

Breakfast with my family tml.. WeeEe~

2006-07-31T20:03:00.000-07:00

Finally my FYP is completed, submitted. The last thing that I'm left with is my presentation. It's been a hectic week and i'm glad i'll be able to have a a good rest for the next few days.

Anyway, this post would be a short one to thank those who had been a great help to me. If it wouldn't for u all, I guess I wouldn't be able to complete my project.

Mei Xiu - my team mate for teaching so many things, for the help in every aspect and all the suggestions
Kun You - for his constant help and all that trouble tat we gave him
_-_eSh - for the encouragements, support, the discs, the drawings and esp ur precious time where u all would stay in school just to accompany us.
beloved family - for the encouragements, advices, suggestions and tonics
classmates and friends - for their encouragments and feedbacks

and..

my beloved honeyzz - for always comforting me when I'm stress, showing me wif love and care though i've been realli in a bad mood due to the stress, the time when we would run here and there just to get my posters and stuffs printed, the days where you came all the way from home to drive me back, the time when you bought dinner esp for me knowing tat I was rushing my project, the time where you would stay up with me to wait for me to complete my project ,the time you sacrifice while waiting for me to complete my project

and esp..the nite before my submission..

you cooked for me knowing tat I hadnt eaten anything the whole day, the help you rendered when you downloaded different players and trying out everyone single one of them, transferring and burning the final disc, feeding me medicine and accompanying me to school to submit my project.

2006-07-26T23:26:00.002-07:00

its scary to know how selfish and insensitive humans can be

2006-07-14T23:05:00.000-07:00

It been a while since I blog. apologise for the lack of updates.

Life has been pretty much the same and with my FYP deadline nearing..I'm feeling all stressed up. Been trying really hard to write my report for the FYP and everytime I attempt to write a section, it'll be damn pissed and angry at myself. I realised I've almost lost all the ability to write a decent paragraph.Dammmnn... I need to work on my language. =(

Everytink's been fine for the past 1 month or so. Am really glad that I managed to meet up wif my beloved Si Zhu for a lil belated birthday celebration. It has been a really really long time since I caught up with her and I had a fabulous time though I wish we could have stayed a lil longer.

Updated on our lives and reminiscing the past...

Partners for 2 consecutive years during our upper sec years and we would have a box filled with sweets or chocolates placed under our table. Everday without fail she would nag at me to push in my chair at the end of the day. She loves to use her mechanical pencil to poke my thigh during lesson and during our Geography lesson, both of us would always turn to a side to sleep. Recess time together and both of us have a secret plan on how to save money. *evil luff* Everytime when we return from the term break, she would be the one who provides the wet tissue to clean the table and everytime when i accidentally place my hand over at her desk, she would always :eh..eh..over the line liao la. Lols. I still remember vividly both of us had this small little figurine sitting on the front of our desk and everday when we reach our table, we would place it on our table and at the end of the day, the figurine would go home with us. Oh..and I remember there was once when both of us "stole" a role of toilet papers and it came in handy. =x

Life was never dull with her around and everytime when I browse through my photo album, happy memories would flow into my mind.

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This part is specially dedicated to her..

zhu..really glad to have someone nice to cross my path and I cherish this friendship of ours. really glad you have made a decision and am happy for you. Thanx for always being there to hear me rant on and on and also all the advices. Though we might not get to catch up often but I'm here 24/7 for you. Thanx for all the wonderful memories. =)
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Oh..another important event that took place last month was one of my beloved J-MeSh 21st birthday. Had a celebration and I'm really glad she enjoyed herself. Chalet and BBQ was fun and xiuzz was so busy running here and there trying her best not to neglect her friends. Birthday celebrations are such a hassle.

Alighty..time to continue with my FYP. arghh.. 2 more weeks. sigh

2006-05-28T19:18:00.000-07:00

was suppose to go escape and wild wild wet wif dearie today but it has been raining the whole day so plans cancelled. =(

I've visited TM like 4 times this week. First was on tuesday nite, suppose to watch Da Vinci wif the gang but we didnt make any bookings and thus by the time we were there, they were only left wif the first 2 rows for the last show. Went Siglap for Gelare instead. my favourite. =D . Wanted to try the cheesecake house located nearby but ... it was closed and xing was very disappointed when dearie drove past.

Second trip was on Wednesday when we went for Da Vinci Code.

Caught midnite show - X Men wif dearie on Friday. The show was interesting but the ending wasn't to my liking though and I feel Summer shouldnt have died so early . He's the only handsome looking one in the show and I didnt even have the chance to see him appear on screen for a few more times. =x

So the forth time to Tampines was yesterday when I accompanied Mummy and Daddy to get new fones.

Hopefully I wun need to step into Tampines for the next 2 weeks or so . So scared of the place man.

Singapore Idol soon..

tata

2006-05-23T22:23:00.000-07:00

It's my 38 month anniversary today =D

I'm contemplating whether to blog abt the trip today or some other time. But since I have an hour or so before I meet dearie I guess I shall make good use of tis time.

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Genting Trip 17/05/06

As you know I have been anticipating for this trip for some time thus I was tossing and turning the nite before. Didnt get much rest in fact. Kan chiong dearie called me at 430 am to check if I was awake when in fact I am suppose to meet him at 545 am at the foot of my block .
K i a s u

Waited for quite some time for a cab coz the road was rather empty. Picked ky up followed by xing den headed to Golden Mile. I guess due to the fact that it was not the peak season thus there were lotsa aunties and uncles and we were the youngest group of ppl there. We were the rather early ones among the group to get on the bus and we started playing around with the seats buttons and snapping pics away...

On the bus, there was this 2 uncle who kept talking non-stop and was sitting directly behind me and dearie. From Singapore to Genting...gosh they were practically talking anything under the sun. From their value of their house to what their wives are doing and going to , their personal life (one was a teacher mind you) , his teaching experiences, his school policies, his students to his friends life, his friends son to the show that was playing on the bus player to the scenery and the roads of malaysia. I was forced to listen to all these craps not coz I was KPO but I was unable to sleep on the bus. Dearie was also able to listen to their conversation so clearly even though he had the mp3 player plugged into his ear.

Had a stop over at Yong Peng and xing bought his fav bubble gum

Look how happy he is playing with his bubble gum

Look how stoned dearie is . Kun You has been very quiet thru out the journey.
coz he has been hooked on his PSP

caught in action his toopid act cute face

Reached Genting around 130

Checked into the hotel, rested a while before heading out for dinner. Had PIZZA!! its damn cheap over there compared to Singapore and I love their Cheesey Bread Stick. Had my casino visit for the very first time and aftermath we headed back to our room. Played some lame dice game over at my room and the lousy has to be spanked on the sole of the foot using a magazine. The weather was rather cold thus it was very painful.

Got bored of it after an hour or so and we headed down to the casino again!!! Went back to the room when it was close to 230 as they wanted to catch the Chanmpions League Final and I was the first to doze off followed by dearie and kun you. Surprisingly, xing was the only one who stayed up throughout the whole match.

Day 2 18/05/06

Dim Sum for breakfast

How I wish I can have Dim Sun for breakfast everyday. I'm be the happiest girl on earth den =)

Went out to take some pics as the weather was cool or rather cold outside and it was cloudy..

xing and his balls..THE balls i mean =x

The Gang

Next on the agenda was THEME PARK! =D

First caught the 4D show and it was darn stupid *$%%#!@@

Kun you first started with his roller coaster ride while the 3 of us were busy taking pics.

My favourite pics =DD

I didnt noe why I had the guts to try the Space shot. All I knew was tat when I was on the ride at the peak, I regretted making that decision . =

Look how high it is

Sat on the indoor rollercoaster ride, farris wheel blah..blah..

Got sick and tired of the rides den we headed for a round of bowling and billard. And I had the highest score for the bowling game and I won myself a drink from coffee bean. =D

Dinner at Pizza Hut again. LOls. Den back to our rooms to prepare for gambling. hahaz.

Before that had supper at coffee bean;
mocha + black forest cake = superb

=D

Was shocked to findare all kinds of people in the casino. ill mannered, rude, snobbish wadever you name. arghhh..was pushed and shoved when they were placing bets.

Next was Karaok Nite. Sang till almost 3 plus in the morning. Headed back to the room but I cant get to sleep at all and thus I drageed dearie out to look for ky and xing in their rooms and in the end we ended up in the casino. =x

Day 3 19/05/06

Left the casino for breakfast around 7 den roamed around before going back to our rooms to pack our stuffs. Had a 1 hour nap and den shopped around to buy last minute stuffs.

Last pic in the room juz after my bath

Dearie and I was praying hard that we would not be in the same bus as the 2 talkative uncled. Fortunately we didnt but our return journey was even worsssstttt. arghhh..

I am too lazy to elaborate the whole incident and since xing had written a nice story abt the uncle i hope he doesnt mind me extracting it from his blog

xing :

in the afternoon we board the bus back to singapore..Annoying encounter no 2...

theres this ah pek AGAIN but different one..this time infront of us..the time for us to be on the bus is 2.00 pm we reach there on time and we are shocked that the whole bus is waiting for us.. Singaporean spirit i guess.. KIASU...then when we got up the bus, the ah pek said" finally LAI LE LAI LE, can go liao"like very scarstic those kind.. then when everyone settle down.. he put his leg up on the front head rest.. we all like 0_0 then we reliease is his wife infront..then when we reach our our stop to have toilet breaks .. he did something very SHOCKING..

auntie /uncle / /KY

jane / HJ //

ME empty Ah pek ----> sound" Pooo~~ PUakkk"

he farted... darn.. and he sat one side of his butt and squeeze the gas out and change butt and squeeze out another one.. FAINTED.. we all laughed.... when we down the bus.. we joke andjoke.. hahaa he is english speaking and yet he nv even say excuse me.. infront of him btw is his family members.

then when we reached the malaysia custom to chop our passport.. then normally u will hear " BOM BOM BOM " which is the stamping of the passport.. then suddenly " Pooo~~~ PUakkk" AGAIN.. OMG.... then my fren and i was about to go out when we heard the sound we came back .. IT WAS HIM AGAIN... hahahah everyone around him look at him..

then when we reach Golden Mile.. before we got down the bus... HE DID A FINALE.... F*** HIM ... this time his butt was facing my direction and with one side of his BUTT he Squeeze out the loudest Fart i ever heard... abit dry and wet those kind... EEE then all the auntie behind us were laughing at him say "dun go near him later he explode" in hokien MUHAHAHA we laugh our ASS out....

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Can't image such ppl exist in Singapore. How uncivilised and unclutured .

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In conclusion, i realli did enjoy my trip alot and I hope there are many more chances to come. =D

2006-05-21T19:35:00.000-07:00

Back in S'pore..

Had LOADS of fun there.. I miss the place rite after i board the bus... I wanna go back there again but before tat I have got to save lotsa money...hehes. Shall blog abt the trip soon coz I'm too lazy now.

2006-05-17T00:03:00.000-07:00

Just finish packing my stuffs and I'm all ready to set out.

5 more hours before I meet dearie at the foot of my block. Shall go get some rest and off I go..

2006-05-15T15:38:00.000-07:00

2 more days !!! weE~ =D

but...I'm having cough and sore throat since Friday. sigh~ pray for me to recover in time so I can enjoy myself and indulge in ALL the yummlicious food.

Went town on Friday. Caught Poisedon @ The Cathay.Nice show but somehow I personally feel that it is rather short. Had lotsa time before the show started and shopped ard PS, dinner and went for a few billard games since all of us were damn bored and had notink betta to do.

After the game, we went for another round of pool session and guess wad I BEAT dearie. LOL. Though it just plain lucky but its the first time beating dearie but I still lost to ky and xing. -.-"

time to pack up and get ready for the super long journey home. guess i'll prob doze off on the bus again. hiaks.

2006-05-11T19:58:00.000-07:00

All of a sudden ...

friends seemed meangingless to me..do they really understand me at all? Why dun I even feel a lil bit of care or concern from them. Why are u all when I needed you all? I guess my presence is no longer important. THANKS for making me feel this way.

How true is it when many says friends forever ???

2006-05-09T13:14:00.000-07:00

its realli amazing to see me blogging in sch rite now which I haven done tat in ages. I just love IT Security and Management Module. Today is a rather easy problem and I hope I would be able to present well during the presentation ltr on.

One O'clock and its lunch time and here I am with a growling stomach waiting for bezties to finish up their work .

Tml's a wednesday and its OFF DAY!!! yippie. Finally can have more hours of sleep. Been deprive of rest these days. 4 hours of sleep and off to school and I actually doze off on the bus more freuently these days. sigh. Is it a sign tat I am getting older.

Looking forward to nxt wed as well coz there will be a little get away fm all the hectic schedules and stressful days. Will be going off to Genting wif dearie and gang for 3 days 2 nites. Hehe. Self declared holidays so I would probably miss 2 days of lesson. I'm soooooOOOOOO looking forward to it coz its my first overseas trip wif dearie. wEeeEee~ I wanna play play play and enjoy myself to the max.

I really like my life now. Though school stuffs keeps me realli busy and cause me to be stressful but I guess sometimes its really inevitable. Love life been good and I'm really thankful that even after 3 yrs plus we are still going on fine. =D

Oh ya..Jie Jie has gotton her O2 atom and I am so super duper jealous. someone buy for me canssss???

2006-04-30T12:57:00.000-07:00

Finally..I'm able to find some time out of my busy schedule. Been having a hectic lifestyle since school started and that explains why I haven been blogging.

I guess everyone has been complaining about the journey to school. gosh~ It's really damn tiring having to wake up as early as 5.45 in the morning and only allowing 1 hour of preparation before I make my way to the bus stop to catch the bus. It's even worst when I have to change 3 buses to get to school. If I'm lucky enuf I'll be able to get a seat on the bus. If not I would have to stand all the way from home to the Woodlands campus and tat will probably be as long as 1 1/2 to 2 hours.

Journey is long and tiring enuf to kill me yet I have been staying in school to do my FYP these days . I'll only get home ard 10 and by the time I wash up, do my stuffs and call dearie it's already close to midnite. That's how boring my life gets. so routine like eh. Sigh...and FYP is only at the planning stage. Cant image how would it be like when we are in the midst of coming up with our mode. It'll be even more amazing to see the end product coz I guess by the time me and xiu are at that stage we would probably be left with half a life. LOL.

Made alot of sacrifices for the FYP man..darn..less sleeping hours, less rest time, less dinner time at home, less time for dearie and more brain cells killed. Anyway finally gotta an external hard disk drive. been hoping to get one since the first day of school. Eventually got it because tis time round I really need it for my project. Have been trying to clear spaces on my laptop as well coz the sofware I need to use requires a lot of space and rendering itself would take hours. gosh~ another nitemare.

Understanding tests are around the corner and tat means revision time also. I tink i need 30 or even 40 hours a day.

save me someone.

2006-04-15T13:38:00.000-07:00

The Man Utd match was such a disappointment. They can even concede a single goal last nite.. nono..shld be tis morning even when Sunderland is at the bottom of the chart. Now the gap of 7 points difference between Chelsea remains. Wad happened to the fighting spirit tat I saw when they were playing against Arsenal? sigh~

Anyway let me backtrack a lil on wad I have been doing these few days. Spent the whole day doing an assignment for Kun You. Took me great effort to get it done but in the end I didnt manage to meet the target of 2500 words. Hopefully his teacher wouldn't mind ya. Search for information like hell and imagine I got to type and rephrase it. damnnn. Anway went for supper with dearie den headed to his hse to catch the match. The match ended close to 5 in the morning and dearie and I were like pratically sleepwalking when he sent me home. LOL. I pity him. Bet he's still snoring away..ZzzzZZzzz... Anyway I got up so early coz I was woken by an sms telling me that the class posting is out... so as usual I would be damn anxious to find out whether there would be familar faces in the class therefore I got up immediately to check. Fortunately there are peepz I noe so I guess the sem wouldn't be tat sucky I hope.

Went Liquid Kitchen @ Sergangoon Gardens wif Sarah, Meixiu, ginny and my childhood mate Yan Ming on Thursday nite. The ambience there was quite nice and it was quite some time all of us meet up so it was a nice catching up session. Thanx for the juggie treat Mr Tan =D Was so tired when I got home and I nearly stepped onto Chris coz I didnt noe he was spending the nite over and was sleeping in my room. Luckily I am still alert enuf if not he would have been a pancake le. LOLs..

Today is the last weekend of the hols .. 6 weeks juz flew by like dat. sigh~ I wish more holidays would come but I heard the new semester arrangement sux big time.

wish: can we have another 6 more weeks of holidays?

2006-04-13T12:14:00.000-07:00

My hair sux but I love the color though

2006-04-11T21:44:00.000-07:00

Been some time since I updated. Have been spending my time wif dearie. Met up with him consecutively for 5 days. Feels great to have him thruout the day by my side.

School starting in 5 days time and I'm super sianzzz. Went back to school yesterday to help out with the freshmen programme. The new campus is big and mei xiu and I almost got lost. =x Everywhere looks the same and there are still a number of constructions going on inside the building.

Went down to Acer Service Centre tis afternoon with dearie to have my laptop fixed . ALL THANX TO MY BRO!!!

boredboredbored...

2006-04-04T11:17:00.000-07:00

Amazingly I'm up at 10 tis morning. I wish i could wakie a lil earlier everyday so I wun have a hell of a terrible time falling asleep every nite and maybe I'll be just in time to adjust my body clock back when sch starts in 2 weeks time. Boo~Boo~

I'm so stuck wif my projects. Everytime when I am all set to start I'll be held back. Hopefully Cavvy replies to my email so I can start to do some planning for our FYP. sigh~

Today is tuesday and my craving for Gelare is back again..LOL..Waffle ice cream !!! *yummy*

Ohh..my papillio is here and I'm ecstatic.

I've been hooked to JJ's song and MTV. He's so cute and I heard tat he might be here in town for his concert in June. I so wanna go man.... *hint* Beeen watching any shows guest starrring him.. oh mannn...

Teehee...back to JJ...

2006-04-03T15:34:00.000-07:00

Being a wife and mother is a woman's life long career

2006-03-31T20:16:00.000-08:00

I fear changes but yet it is inevitable in life

2006-03-30T02:10:00.000-08:00

HoHoHo..Finally gotton a new skin.

My first attempt to change the blog skin after like 2 and a half years since the set up of it? Bet most peepz would be bored stiff with the last blog skin tat I used. Anyway spent quite some time trying to find a perfect layout but most of the skins I found doesnt suit me. It's either way too cute and sweet or too complicated and I have a preference for those skins which does not require much navigations. Therefore I choose tis realli plain and simple wan. It may seem way differnt from the last skin tat i used but juz had to urge to change the "feel" of it. Hope I would get some positive comments. hurhur

You know,many a time I would be wondering who on earth would waste his/her own precious time on this little insignificant site. It's like who cares wad I have been doing or how I feel etc etc.. Even though of closing down tis little space but it juz occured to me that I dun need anyone to read it or wadsoever it's a place where I can put downlittle ups and downs and of my life and its also a very very good place to vent my fustration. LOLs. might even tink of making a private blog or with password. But in the mean time ,I shall juz spend some time jotting down thinks to occupy my time since I am so damnn free..

Oh ya..if you have been reading my blog and I dun have ur link rite here..tag me and leave me ur link alrite. =) Guess most peepz have either changed their links or are no longer updating their blogs.. So I am STRONGLY ENCOURAGING peepz to get back to blogging.. It wun take up too much of your time does it? hehs.

Alrite ..bathing time den I shall flop rite in front of the tv all nite..

Missing dearie ..hope he will be able to finish work early. Been 4 days since I last met him. *pray hard*

2006-03-29T07:55:00.000-08:00

Just got off the fone wif dear a moment ago and my ear is burning hot hot hot. Its been some time since we were on the fone for hours.

We were reminiscing and talking abt the past and it brought back a great heap of fond memories. ... the courtship days and stuff lidat .. =D

Talked about how I first met him face to face after months of sms-ing and fone calls. I still remember vividly that it was a Saturday evening after my CCA. Headed to Bugis for dinner wif zhu and ruo xuan and he came down especially from town just to ask me out for dinner but I rejected him. LOLs.

blah...blah...blah...

Guess onli ppl who are close to me noes the story of how I got to noe him..how we started out etc...It'll be good to keep it a hush-hush tingy. hehe.

Dear was super hyper today and I dun noe wad got into him but i am really delighted to see him in sucha good mood. He sang like hundreds of song thru the fone and it was so gratifying =DD

I'm realli thankful for having someone like him whom I can trust and who will be there for me in my life. Guess that's the best tink I can ask for rite now..

Gosh..am really in a lovey-dovey mood nw...

hehes

dream..dream...dream....

2006-03-27T00:56:00.000-08:00

I yearn to be in the life of others; envy them for their momentous lives and what is bestowed to them We are all humans of equal status but why does our life differs so much.I'm disturbed,perpluxed. I sit up all night just to ponder why am I not given the luxury.

2006-03-26T00:13:00.000-08:00

Fabulous Weekend

Celebrated our 3rd Anniversary on Friday. Dearie came down to look for me during his luch break to have lunch wif me. He said its a once in a year tingy onli. *faints*How meannn.. Went dinner with him..blah..blah..

Shant bore you readers with the details but in conclusion we been to a few places that we have not vistied during our "pat-tor" times . Did some stuffs that we dun usually do alone...

But good times dun last long.. anticiapted for tis day for quite some time but on the very day itself time seemed to pass very fast without us even realising it. In a blink of an eye 24/03/06 is now history .

Not going to harp on it. Anyway was chatting with yan ming and he "REMINDED" me that I actually have 3 weeks of holidays left and I realised I have yet to do something constructive. shucks...

Tat aside. Hopefully tml I will have the mood to do more meaningful stuffs. LOL

Shall make my way to dearie's hse now.

Tata

2006-03-21T00:13:00.000-08:00

3 more days to our 3rd year Anniversary

WeEe~ I can't wait for the weekends to be here..

Am still in the midst doing the gift.Though it looks damn simple but its damn taxing. The moment I wake up I'll be glued to it till I head to bed. Hope he likes it. Anyway dearie got a lil suspicious coz I got him to drive to ky's place to get some acrylic paint and some markers from him and he was asking why I need them for. Had to cook up some lame excuses. LOL.

Have been having insomnia for the past few nites and now whenever it is getting late I tend to be a lil afraid coz it does feel good to toss and turn in bed for hours. Guess its time to get cough mixtures again..

Oh..met a pervert online two nites ago..dammn how did such a person got my email add. Lucky Sen Chuan helped me get back at him.

DingDangDongzzzz...its time to get back to do the prezzie...

2006-03-19T10:05:00.000-08:00

It took me ages to load blogspot and I've completely lost all inspiration to blog.

anyway..shant wasnt my time and effort since the page is already loaded. juz came back from supper wif dear and "the gang"

Weekend was simple but nonetheless great with dearie around. Went suntec,marina square and bugis on Sat. Slacked the whole day @ dearie'se hse today.

Oh yaaa... dearie got me a tee and skirt from outfitters!!! Yippie. It was the one I saw while shopping with meixiu a few weeks back and I was emphasising to her how much I would love to get it. !!! Was so happy tat nite.

Sigh...in a blink of an eye, weekend is over.. Dearie would be soo busy again.. hmmphf..

Look forward to next weekend coz it's our 3rd year Anniversary.Hope tinks will turn out fine =) Been busy with the surprise gift for him.. *gambadeh*

oh yaaaaa..

Happy 21st Birthday Chris !!

2006-03-16T07:35:00.000-08:00

Simply a great day spent with my beloved sis

Spent my nite over at dearie's place last nite and got home in the morning after he headed to work to get a couple hours of rest.

Amazingly I woke up on my own coz was jie jie and I had plans for today.

Went Shangri-la Hotel for lunch. Food was quite nice but had lotsa fattening food and i am feeling like damn FAT now. wanted to go without desert but jie jie wanted me to accompany her to get and greedy me couldnt resist all the deserts. Manage to limit myself to chocolate ice-cream and tiramisu. lol.

Headed to KBOX @ cineleisure coz jie jie was so desperate to singg... Feels weird with just 2 persons singing coz it's like either you or me or us so didnt rest my mouth much but realli had a nice time there. Glad I went there coz initially I didnt have the singing mood ya noe.

Anyway its been a long time since jie jie and I spent time alone other then in the bedroom. hehe.

Thanx jie jie for all the treats.

Love ya.. muacks

2006-03-13T07:09:00.000-08:00

I feel veryy guilty and badddd..

Why do I always have to throw tantrums at him
Why must I show attitude to him
Why must I make him tolerate all my nonsense
Why must I always be so demanding
Why do I always have to make him suffer

He has been realli nice, sweet, attentive to me..
He's put in alot of effort to change to be a better bf...
Done alot just for me..

Why do I have to treat him this way...
Gosh...wad is wrong wif me
Izzit coz its tat time of the month of it's juz me
I always regret my actions, my words

Time and time again
I would feel guity and apologise
But you didnt even grumble nor complain a single bit
You told me its alrite
You understand and dun blame me at all
But the more you understanding you are
The more guity I feel

Why can I even learn my lesson

Can someone wake me up
Can someone make me cherish him even more

I'm realli sorry

2006-03-11T23:31:00.000-08:00

yesterday was juz a unlucky day.. plain unlucky...

Dearier and I planned tis shopping trip like days before and he even told me I could get wadever I liked...was looking forward for tis day butttt...

Had very bad cramps in the morning tat I almost died man...but in the end I forced myself outta the hse. Eventually cramps got better...prob they knew I was going out to enjoy.. lolz.

Went to the IT show @ suntec and saw many many many familar faces but all were too busy so I didnt wanna disturb them. It was realli realli packed there. my foot and toes were being stepped on like hw many zillion times , was being pushed by those HUGE guy till I nearly fall luckily dearie grab hold of me if nt I cannot imagine hw ugly I will look. Wanted to get a external hard disc but afterall those "physical abuse", dearie suggested that we should get it some other time instead. Left Suntec and headed to town...

Next, whatever I laid my eyes on..I couldn't get it. either there isnt the colour I wanted or there isnt the size tat I can fit into . Even the guess perfume I wanted was sold outtt.. hmmphf..was sooo soo sad tat dearie kept cheering me up saying tat we can come back again next week to look for it.

Whenever I am out wif my friends, I would see loads of stuffs tat I liked and dearie promised to go back and get it tat weekend but whenever we are there I will always fail to get wad I want. I even asked if he was a jinx. =x lolzz..

Decided to head to PS for dinner coz Sen Chuan was always recommanding Manhattan @ PS. Was walking to Cine to get the car and coincidentially bumped into zhu...

Went over to PS but was sooo disappointed. The queue at Manhattan was soooo long..Decided to search for others coz there are loads of different places in PS tat we can dine in. Secret receipe had limited choices, Swensens food is damn boring... Cafe Cartel queue was osooo dammmn dammn longggg . Headed to Carrefour to buy chips and drinks to get ready for today's Man Utd and Newcastle match. Dearie told me to take my own pick so I gotton lotsa junk food...usually dearie would limit me but tis time round I guess he was feeling guilty coz I couldnt get anitink at all and thus decided to make up to me.

Decided to go over to Cosy Bay for dinner but when we got there there wasnt any parking lots available and our next options was the Hong Kong Restuarant @ katong and the same tink again. We were making rounds and rounds till we were so irrititated tat we decided to head back to his hse.

Back at his hse we wanted to order KFC but noe wad it was the first time I gotton such an excuse. The operator say they wouldnt take in any orders currently coz KFC had too many orders on hand and suggested that we call back half an hr later. By the time all these shits had happened I was sooo damn pissed and my cramps were back again. In the end we had no choice but to stick wif Mac. By the time the order arrived it was close to 10. dammmn it. wad a bad dayyy..

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On a lighter issue, i gotta admit tat dearie has realli change alot. Its pretty obvious tat he has put in alot of effort. I used to complain and grumble alot abt him ; his attitue,the way he treats me and stuffs but nw I'm realli realli realli touched. His sweet guestures realli makes me feel like a princess, the words he used made me realise how important I am to him. Sometimes I realli feel guilty got throwing tantrums and him, showing my attitude and giving him loads of crapz and rubbish. I've never once felt so loved. Hope tinks will remain .

2 more weeks to our 3rd year anniversary. doing a surprise gift for him.. hehe.

2006-03-04T22:01:00.000-08:00

Hols have officially started... wEeeEe~

tis time round ,must plan my time wellll..

am craving for sushiiii..

*slurps*

2006-03-01T19:27:00.000-08:00

I am very very very lazy to blog but I know if I dun blog soon I would have forgotton the happy times during the weekend.

Was over at dearie's place during the weekend. RUSHED to his place after school coz notti him took urgent leave for no apprent reason. and he blamed me saying that I told him I wasnt attending school on friday. By the time he called me in the morning I was already on the bus to school.

So we meet up with "the gang" on Friday nite for dinner.

Woke up early in the morning on Sat while dearie was still snoring so loud *smirk*coz I promised dear to make breakfast for him. and it took me so much effort and time. *i suck at cooking though I was once an F&N student* Had trouble opening the can and i was using the opener to bang and bang but tat stupid tink juz wun'd open. I even tried using all the 3 can openers tat can be found in his hse. Was so afraid tat the noise would wake him up. I t took me great pains juz to get the can open.

Had scrambled eggs, ham,sausage,toast bread and chicken soup for breakfast. By the time I finished cooking I was perspiring all over. Dearie was sweet enuf to wake up and help me with the washing up.

The Breakfast Evidence of dearie washing up

Went parkway with them in the afternoon den headed for the Hong Kong Street Restuarant over at Katong. FInally had a chance to visit tat place. Been hearing lots abt them. Anyway would love to try to Hong Kong Cafe located somewhere near it too. *drools*

After dinner headed to ky's hse to burn some stuffs and initially we wanted to catch the Chelsea match as we had a side bet on the score line among ourselves but too bad the placed was damn packed. Headed back to dearie's hse and I was so tired tat I fell asleep while watching TV.

Woke up damn early on sunday morning coz his neighbours were so dammn noisy. Dearie and I went to get breakfast den headed home.

Had a pre birthday celebration on Sunday evening with my family plus dearie and jie jie's bf. Had dinner at Kenny Roger @ Ms. We were given a table which is at the far end of the restaurent and thus the ambience was very nice. Food was good esp the Macaroni Cheese. It's superb man!!!

Shopped awhile den daddy sent us home.

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so Tuesday was my birthday . Headed to school as usual and there was onli a pathetic number of ppl who attenede lesson coz its was the idiot Derek Tan's lesson. Was busy discussing abt the project plan with mei xiu in class when suddenly Jun Jie popped up of no where with a lited birthday cake on his hand. Was so embarrassed and shocked at that point of time coz I thout no one rems that it was my birthday. The class sang a birthday song and wad surpriseed me more was the my BEZTIES even bought me another cake. so in total i had 2 cakes. =D realli felt so happy.

Class ended early so we decided to go for a meal. Had pHine's with Mei Xiu, Sarah, Heidi, Javern and Chris. Bezties was so sweet to get a top for me from Fond Hugs and I love it loads..

Ended the day by having a simple dinner wif dearie and ky. Though it was realli a simple wan but having him ard is more than wad I can ask for.

Anyway I would realli like to thank alot alot alot of ppl.

- my family for the pre birthday celebration @ Kenny Roger
- Bezties for the surprises. The birthday cake , the treat at pHine's, the beautiful sexy top and also your wishes and love
- Chris and Javern for coming along for dinner and ur wishes
- Jun Jie for the suprise birthday cake and the puma watch
- Kun you and xing for the beautiful hand drawn tee and dinner
- and to all my peeps who weere sweet enuf to call or sms me.

Thanx alot. Realli had a nice time though it was a simple affair but it realli feels great to know tt all of u cares.

LOVE YA PEEPS

2006-02-23T22:13:00.000-08:00

35th Month Anniversary

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2006-02-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

Anticipating for this weekend...

weEeeEeEeEeEeEeEeeEeeEEeeE~

=D

2006-02-19T21:00:00.000-08:00

Had a splendid weekend. Ate alot and I feel FAT. ooooommmmgggg !!!!

town-ed , simpang , liver pool VS Man Utd, siglap, gelare ice-cream.

=DDDDD

i'm loving it ...

2006-02-15T23:18:00.000-08:00

I FUCKING hate freeloaders...dammmnn....shudd the hell up if you did not contribute a single tink at all. to the team. Dun pretend in front of the fac tat u did alot . in fact i felt ashamed tat I am in the same grp as u coz u were uttering rubbish.Wad more u came late. u appeared fm nowhere after the 2nd meeting juz some time before the 3rd meeting and came her to watch anime and fool ard. You have the cheek to ask me whether I am done wif the solution.

U didnt even bother to read wad today's prob abt. Yes. the problem statement was title "Graph" therefore u jolly well take me as a fool and ask me today is abt graph izzit. needless to say rite. plz la..u wanna ask use some common sense alrite..you cant fool me. you even asked crap and senseless question. PLZ dun act wise cannnn... it juz fucking irritites the shit out of me....

You noe I dun have a good impression of u and am avoiding you and yet you happily act as though u dun noe abt it. Just leave me alone will you.. dun spoil my day. When u didnt appear at all in the morning u didnt noe hw happy I was.

U betta pray hard I can keep cool if nt i'll not hesitate to scream rite into ur face and give u a tite slap.

GET LOST FUCKER !!!

2006-02-14T21:55:00.000-08:00

Happy Bleated Valentine's Day

Though only had a short meet up wif dearie last nite but he was realli realli sweet to gave me a realli realli pleasent surprise. =DDDDD so sweet of him.. hehe..

Thanx dearie and JJ for the flowers.

Hope all of u had fun too. Now..looking forward to the other special day...or rather two of it.

=)))))

2006-02-03T23:29:00.000-08:00

HoHo... Happy New Year Everyone . Hope I'm nt too late though.

How's the red packet collections goin on man...i guess CNY has turned me into a greedy ass..been feasting on truck loads of high-calories food and goodies..I'm turning into a P I G !!! I juz cant stop and I'm bursting soon..

Anyway..life has been good so far =D

2 Occasions coming up soon..and tat's why I love Feb sooOooOO much.. hehez..

V-day on the 14th and MY BIG DAY on the 28th. You know it has always been a trend for peepz to write down their wishlist juz before their big day rite..and I'm tinking if I shld do so too.. coz most of the time some nice souls would get them one of their those juz like how my sis got her iPod Nano from a nice person out there...

*hmmmm...* I guess I should too... but but but there seems to be too many tinks tat I'm wishing for...

2006-01-22T18:11:00.000-08:00

Shopped during the weekends wif ..gotten my new pair of levis jeans and tops. sponsered by mummy ^^

Dearie got his clothes and shoes too. All in juz a few hrs of shopping and I love his new puma pumps too bad it's males if nt i would have stolen it fm him. =x

6 more days to Chinese New Year and I'm looking forward to it though school starts on Thursday which I'm still deciding if I should attend lesson for tat week.

Have been discussing with dearie the plans for new year eve but we totally do not have any idea where to head to. For the past 2 years we have been going down to River Hong Bao but he complained that its very very boring.. =( any suggestions ???

Alrite..back to java...

*sighs*

2006-01-11T00:40:00.000-08:00

Gosh..I've juz realised how long I've nt blogged.

Anyway..been rather busy since 2006 started.

School has been rather ok other than the fact that there has been a change of facilitator for my System Analysis Module and he SUCKS BIG TIME. *grrrr* hate him to the core. Everyone agress that he behaves like a Commando; shouting,screaming,ordering..How am i goanna survive for another 6 more weeks..sigh

Been busy with the upcoming open house which would be held @ the woodlands campus tis weekend. Hope tinks will turn out fine. I'll be on duty on all the 4 days ..abit no life rite?? but no choice dearie has been busy wif his work and has no time to accompany me . ='( Bet we wouldn't be meeting up as often as we used to. Prob once in 2 weeks. yes..tat's hw bad tinks are.. I thout life would be better after he ORD-Ed but i guess I am realli realli wrong.

Now on the lighter issues, my house was given a fresh coat of paint yesterday. Now my living room , dining area and my balcony looks so pretty. coz it's green. yes..bright, fresh green. and my room ....2 shades of purple and I love it loads.. My sis and I are addicted to purple and we are tryiny our best to furnish our room with as much purple stuff as possible . hehe. Contribution to the purple room fund anyone ??

Purple Purple Purple

2006-01-01T00:02:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year Everyone

May 2006 be a good year for all

=)

2005-12-29T08:39:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Cynthia !!! *throws coffitti*

Had a smashing good time @ zouk last nite. Celebrated my fren of 9 years birthday. Was a good time for me to catch up wif the rest too. Been a looOooOng time since I last saw most of them. anyway, saw a few familar faces there too; ppl like ginny,chris and lynnie.. been decades since I last saw her..used to "pon" sch wif her..hang ard @ her hse and ya..she used to guide me in my maths too but too bad our grades were so different ..wahaha..those were the days ...

Was dead beat when I got home and if it werent for dearie's call, I would have slept thru today. sigh~ school's goaan reopen soon. so not looking forward to it. *grumbles*

Oh ya..I forgot to announce...

MY DEARIE FINALLY COMPLETED HIS NS !!!!! *yippie* [ORD lo] WeeEeee~

2005-12-26T00:21:00.000-08:00

My life has been extremely eventful and meaningful... Been busy like a bee tat I hardly have time to update tis little space of mine. It has been a crazy and hectic week.

Dearie has been clearing his leave therefore I have been spending most of my time with him.

Had a family chalet since tue till Friday. crazy time for all of us. so glad tat dearie came and also not forgetting my "gang". Hope they had a fun time. The chalet was really BIG. those bunglow kind with 4 spacious rooms. jie jie and I were realli stunned when we first step foot into the place. We were practically runnin around the whole house like mountain turtles. wahhahha..

Anyway..too many tinks happened for me to go into exact details but I haven been sleeping much for the past 4 days there.

Had a nice Christmas Eve Celebration time wif dearie. He was really sweet and I loved his surprise. =DDDDD

Christmas was spent wif the "gang". Headed to Marina South for steamboat but it was damn packed. Oh ya..caught King Kong a few days back. I would say tat it was a pretty nice show though it was a lil long but yeah nice..4 out of 5 i would say..

2005-12-05T22:39:00.000-08:00

6 more hours before I can see my beloved sis again... *yippie*

Juz changed and wash the bedsheets for jie jie and I but it seems like its goanna rain... =( Have been busy tidying the house the whole morning despite reaching home late last nite. Taking a break now before I continue.

Met up wif ky yesterday evening coz he wanted to get some colored papers from Art Friend and I travelled all the way from Bedok to Town juz for the pathetic few mins. hahha.. I feel so dumb. Anyway..both of us headed to Tamp to meet xing for dinner. Poor xing..he looked so stressed wif his projects. [xing ...jia you jia you ok]

Met up wif Elmer aftermath. Headed to 85 coz he was super duper hungry. Went to one of the KTV pub at East Coast wif his frenz. They are realli a bunch of interesting fellas. They were realli crappy and lame. They even came up wif a nick name for me even though I have onli seen some of them once or twice and worst still some onli the very min i reached there. Played bluff and I was the loser for the first round already. Lady Luck isnt on my side yesterday nite but I'm glad after all the "punishments" I was still sober enuf.

Got home safe and sound but the moment my head touched my pillow, my head was spinning .. Woke up several times thru out the nite and I am amazed that I am still rather energetic even when Aaron called early in the morning at 8 plus or so.

So envious of my bro. Having a chalet when he is onli 12. WTH!!! In the past, my mum didnt even allow me to stay over when I was 13. Unfair !!! *PROTEST !!!*

Alrite..I guess it's time for me to continue tidying up the room

*sweep...clean...dust...*

2005-12-04T07:51:00.000-08:00

lalala...I am in a extreme good mood today. Dun ask me why ..not too sure either.. maybe coz shopping does perks me up a lil plus I juz parted wif dearie and he's on his way back to camp and the good news is he will be booking out on Tuesday. *giggles*

Went suntec wif dearie on Saturday coz he has to get a shirt for his so call "ORD Dinner". It's my first time seeing dearie look so smart. I noe it's now a long sleeve shirt onli der...why make a big fuss outa it but..but pardon me..its my very first time seeing a "coperate"-look dearie coz he has always been rather slack in his dressing. either tee and jean or tee and berms. But sad to say..I didnt saw anitink tat I fancy. =(

Nvm bout yesterday coz I went shopping wif mummy today. Was suppose to accompnay her to get her DnD attire but...she didnt found anitink to her liking and in the end I was the one doing the shopping. hehe

I'm super duper hungry rite now.. sigh..

Oh ya..BSB are coming for a concert. sponsers anione ??

2005-12-01T23:22:00.000-08:00

Yippie..the term break is finally here... Today's the last day of school but...i aint in school..I had my self-declared holidays 1 day earlier than the rest.. hahha..

Holiday means lotsa late-nite, lotsa sleep, lotsa time to slack around and also most importantly...MY JIE JIE WILL BE BACK SOON !!!! 4 more days and I am a lonely ger no more.. Hopefully she wun ditch me aside for Chris when she comes back *hint hint*

I guess its time to start planning wad I should do during the hols...

2005-11-27T17:33:00.000-08:00

Towned yesterday and there were lotsa ppl everywhere..guess everyone's getting into the festive mood..

Finally dearie got me a pair of heels. *yippie* I've been constantly psyco-ing him to get me a pair. haha.. sigh..i need money badly..suddenly i realised there are still lotsa items that I have yet to strike off from my wish list and its been there for a decade or so and I can see cob webs forming up... i guess its time to go job hunting..

Java UT tml and I'm so dead... = / i dun even understand wad i've been doing for the past 8 weeks.

Alvin juz reminded me that we gotta submit our specializition tis friday..gosh..I've got no idea wad to choose damn.. super duper dead.

Alrite..time to bath and head out...

2005-11-24T23:07:00.000-08:00

I feel so stressed up. Need to blog about happy moments to cool me down..

Let's talk about

BEN 'N' JERRY'S *yippie*

Was craving for ice-cream last nite
and ..
and ...
i sinned.. =x

Went over to siglap's to get the yummlicious and irrestitable b'n'j den headed to East Coast.

Elmer and I were pretty like mad freaks eating ice-cream in the freezing car in the middle of the nite when the weather is already so darn cold .. But in the end we didnt manage to finish the whole tub. *phew* at least I wun feel so guilty *grins*

My butt nearly suffocated *rubs butt*coz I didnt have the chance to get out and set foot on any piece of land in East Coast coz we were pratically talking craps and rubbish the whole time there. realli amazed by hw nonsensicalwe can get. =/

Got home around 4 and I onli had an hour plus of slp before i gotta get up for school. Was so reluctant to get up when my alarm rang and I realli had the urge to skip class again but I decided tat I should be a good ger and get my ass moving to sch.. =/ *beware : I get realli easily irritable when I have insufficient rest* so u guys can prob guess hw "black" my face was tis morning..haha..but I'm glad I manage to have a short nap in class and I felt so much better after that.

Now I cant wait for the school break to be here so that I can stay out late.. 1 more week to it and I hope I wun lose my motivation to go sch for the last week. =x

2005-11-23T00:52:00.000-08:00

Back from Dinner wif Ban Lee. I feel so fat eating pasta.. i need some exercise soon..or rather rite now..

Skipped sch today coz I got home quite late last nite and and am extremely tired. In fact i guess I am a lil' silly. I actually woke up, bath and had my breakfast before deciding tat I should just give sch a miss.

Went to slp ard 7.15 and was woken up by the "adorable elmo's" sms-es (if you're wondering why on earth I would give him such a nick..pardon me coz it was wasn't my doing he self proclaimed tat he is the cute sesame street character juz coz his name sounds very alike wif Elmo) . Was half sleeping half sms-ing thru out and when I open my eyes, it was already 5pm. Gosh..I cant believe I actually slept for so long...

Movie last nite was great. Caught Just Like Heaven . Rather romantic and funny show. I'll give it 4 thumbs up.

Been a long time since I last caught a movie. Wanted to catch the earlier show but there isnt much nice seats left so we gotta catch the later wan. Headed to his fren's wakeboard shop in town after we got the tix coz there was ample time before the show. Realli friendly peepz.. Michale was trying real hard to persuade me to take up wakeboarding. He even showed me a disc on it. Was realli impressed and tempted but i doubt I'll even have the courage.

Anyway..moovie ended around 11 and supper was next. Met another of his fren again.

By the time I got home I was super duper tired..

Oh yes...there isnt lesson tml.. yippie..yippie..share my joy peepz.. Alrite..alrite..slacking time..

2005-11-21T17:15:00.000-08:00

Darn Pissed..typed a super duper long entry and i dun noe wad the hell i did and the thousand word essay juz *phew* vanished into thin air. shall juz jot down in point form coz i'm simple too annoyed.

- Nice dinner gathering wif Bezties on Friday (looking forward to more)
- East Coast, Kallang and Marina Bay wif Elmer on saturday nite
- Moooovies wif Elmer later

bye

irritated

2005-11-16T14:15:00.000-08:00

Can u image having 44 mosquito bites on both of your legs and hands? Its extremely disguisting cannnnn.. dammmn those Sentosa mosquitos. =x But on the other hand..blame me for being stupid to sit there for hours despite noeing that they are on "sucking" spree.

Sent jie jie to the airport yesterday evening..had dinner together and took lotsa pics and my granny said we were behaving like sua kus. hahahhz.. biding good bye to jie jie was hard..and can u believe that my mum actually teared...sigh..i noe she's worried of my sis's safety coz there have been lotsa terror warnings over at aust. just hope so will be back safe and sound soon.

Daddy sent granny back home at tiong bahru and while daddy dropped Chris and I (f.y.i : Chris is my sis bf) at the train station. He headed home while I waited for Elmer to pick me up..had a tough time deciding where to head to since most malls are closing soon..in the end he suggested going either to Labrador Park or Sentosa..of course i choose Sentosa coz it's been zillion years since I set foot there..got some drinks and drove up all the way to the beach. Found a good spot and started stonning there for hours.. he's a realli good listener..gave me lotsa advices and stuffs.. both of us are going through a tough period of time now and I am realli glad that we manage to brace ourselves up at the end of the day. The saying goes " never put 2 depressed people together coz both of them would never survive for long" but i beg to differ. We were much happier person at the end of the day. Prob coz we were crapping too much.. =x By the time when we left Sentosa,it was aready close to 1 but in the end he drove up to Mount Faber instead. We were still talking lotsa rubbish and crapz on the car when we got there. there seem to be never ending topics to talk abt.. anyway.. i saw a glimpse of the huge lited christmas tree at Faber quite eye-catching coz it was realli BRIGHT.

Got home around 3 plus and chatted a while.

Anyway..i'm realli glad to have such a nice fenz like him and I would also like to express my heart felt gratitude thank all my frenz who have always been there for me..namely people like Xiuz,Sarah,Javern, Chris, Kun You, Ban Lee,Xing,Yan Ming,Jie jie who encouraged me alot . I'm realli glad I have frenz like u all . I'm realli thankful for every single one of u. realli..

For now..i shall go tink abt stuffs that I should be tinking..

be back wif more updates..

tata

2005-11-12T17:28:00.000-08:00

ITS ALIVE !!!

I'm back !!! after like..er..1 month 10 days.muahaha..

Life is back to what it is supposed to be. Everything is fine and GOOD. and i mean it.I love the way tinks are rite nw though I noe there would sure be hiccups along the way..but I will learn to take thinks in my stride and I'll promise i'll be stronger than before..

Shall briefly run through what have been happening in my life when i was M.I.A...

Currently,in the midst of the 6th week of school and I've got such a fun bunch of classmates..interesting class..i guess it is one of the most interesting classes ever in my 3 sems in school. Though I dun realli like the modules I am taking now but yerp...my mates made it all seem much more interesting than before...I'm realli glad to have a bunch of fun- loving and helpful classmates..

Everyday seems much more interesting than before..1 and a half hour bus journeys to school will never be as lonely as before with the company of my 2 dear frenz ,and the moment,I step into class and see my beloved mates..i'll be even happier =) I aint as stressed up as before no matter how tough the lesson is. I have learnt to take tinks easy...good or bad u decide..

Caught up wif several frenz but I know there are still dozens of names on my "to meet up" list. There always isnt sufficient time for me to complete all my stuffs but yet..I'll live everyday just like the last..coz i'm not goanna have any regrets at the end of the day.

Oh did I mention I am so into Jay's new album?!?!? His songs accompanys me thru'out the day. The moment I wake up i'll have it running on my hi-fi, the moment I leave home i'll have it on my mp3, and when I reach school, my laptop will be playing his songs throughout the 7 hours in school and yet again when I leave for home, I'll start listening to his songs on my mp3 and finally it would be playing on my hi-fi repeatedly till I finally drop my head down on my pillow to rest. hahaz...how's it??

I'm looking forward to each brand new day wif an open heart except I wished that this coming tuesday will never come or even better there wun be a tuesday and wednesday would be the next day after Monday..sounds silly ? yea..but I dun wan jie jie to leave for Australia..i'll be so lonely den..no one to bully =/ no one to listen to my rubbish and crap , no one to entertain me no one to massage for me and no one to share my rumblings wif. ='( Alrite..now everyone noes how dependent I am on my beloved sis..if it werent for her...I guess I would probably have been a victim to depression..she's always there to listen to me..pull me up when I have fallen into the deepest and darkest hole for the past 18 years and wad more ...gets me a big bar of toblerone chocolate when I am all stressed up. hehe.. Tat's how great she is.. I LOVE U !!!

Hmm..suddenly my chain of thouts snapped probably due to the fact that I remember there's still half a bar left in the refrigerator....maybe i'll update more when I remember it real soon. *smirks*

TOBLERONE TIME !!!

*evil luff*

2005-10-02T14:26:00.000-07:00

I guess I wun be blogging for the time being and am considering whether to close down this blog for good in the near future.

Life hasnt been good for me these days. Going through a rough patch. I'm depressed, dejected, upset and wadever tat u can find in the dictionary.

Behind tat fake smile on my face are tears of sadness. I need some time out. Juz wish to find a spot to bury myself in it and be isolated from this whole world.

I need time to find back my old self...find back my happiness...

*vanished*

2005-09-24T01:01:00.000-07:00

Been realli moody these days.. dun noe wad got into me ..anyway hope the days ahead are better ba..

Been relaxing since tis morning and it realli feels great to juz lie on the bed with my all time favourite comic Archie on one hand.. wEe~ Thanx to my jie jie who brought home a small stack of them. Did a bit of work and ta-dah here I am.

Before I sign off..tis part is specially dedicated to my beloved sis of mine..

Here I go :

Jie Jie.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! * throws coffitti* though u arn't at home to have me accompany you for the countdown and the celebration but I know u enjoyed urself to the max wif ur chrisee dear rite.. *envy* . May you stay pretty forever *giggles* and settle down soon so I can too alrite.. wahaha.. Keep urself free on a day especially for me for ur post b'day celebration ok ?? Come home soon.. I miss u ... nonetheless...

I Love You...

2005-09-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

I'm back home wif a sore feet after walking hundreds and thousands of kilometers.

Had a so call sch trip to Tekong. yea..surprise ? wad a place to have an "excursion". Toured around the place and the building was pretty nice and far much different from what I thout. It's my first time in my 18 years of life stepping into that terriority.

I love the ferry terminal and the ferry. haha.. sounds like a sua gu ?? wahaha..i guess i shall spare u guys the details but basically we were walking around the camp and had lotsa officers guiding us.. as for the guys.. hmm...yum yum for some.. hehe.. xiu and sarah muz be shaking their heads now.. haha.. But it realli is terrible at times.. the guys there seem so erm..hmm.. oggling at the girls as they drool.. haha.. no offence eh.. =x

Was hoping to see my childhood mate there but too bad..not fate eh.. but..but..guess who I saw ?? my ex- derek. I got a shock of my life when I heard someone calling "JANE SIM" while I was walking through the corridor. Exchanged some greetings and chatted for a moment. Guess it's been 4 longs years since we last met and he realli did not change a bit. Still looks and talks exactly the same like before.. hmm..sweet memories but nahx..juz reminiscing the past...

Went 85 for dinner wif sarah, xiu and my new found fren Javern. Had a nice dinner wif lotsa food.. Next after dinner was to Tampines where xiu finally bought her pretty handbag and was all excited like a lil' kid as wad sarah used to describe her.. haha..

Anyway had a fun day today .. =) Am waiting for my bezties to come online to discuss abt tml's plan..

tata everyone..

2005-09-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

Juz as wad my msn nick now appears... Absence makes the heart grow fonder...

Suddenly..i miss dearie soo much..not as though he hasn't booked out in ages...in fact he juz booked in last nite and i spend much of the few days or rather 11 days to be precise with him. Other than going home for my beauty sleep I was practically over at his place most of the time wif him.

I guess I didnt treat dear fairly these days and I feel really guilty now. =( Sometimes I juz feel that I take dearie for granted. Venting my fustrations on him, showing his some kinda rubbish attitude and flaring up over notink thought he's going through a rough patch @ home now.

Where is the understanding girlfriend that is suppose to be wif him thru these times ??? Sometimes whenever I talk abt my r/s wif either zhu or my sis.. they would always make me feel that I am so lucky to have dear my my side, giving me abundent love and care. I guess whenever I lament or complain it's juz coz I aint apperciating all that he has done for me. So much so that I neglected and forgotton all the sweet gestures and the way he loves me..

I guess I should count myself lucky to have so many people who loves me ... =)

You know, it realli feels good to be in the arms of your beloved one. Holding each other and spending quality time together.

Noe wad I aint a good cook though I was a F&N student way back in sec school. But I'm proud to admit tat coz I've got my boi who cooks great food to pamper me.. Whenever he cooks, serve the dinner nicely on the dinner table I feel so loved...the feelings great. I noe I sound crazy but I cant wait to start my own family whenever I have tis feeling.. =/

sigh..the more i say..the more I miss him.. my boi...

i guess I shall stop here and have my dinner prepared yet again by another one who loves me too..my mummy...

2005-09-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

I've finally received a long awaited testimonal. One which has kept me waiting for 2 and a half years. Definitely made my day

=))))))))))

2005-09-18T00:26:00.000-07:00

Curosity realli kills..

I should have stop my itchy hands to click on sometink which I am not suppose to see.. Now i got myself all so upset once again... I know I shouldnt be nosy. I regret my actions totally.

Maybe there isnt anitink going at all. I should have trust him.. It's been 2 and a half years and I know his personalilty well. But again..I am a girl I do have times when I feel realli insecure. I know I gotta trust my boi..but I juz cant seem to control my mind..my thouts been wandering.. i'm afraid but yet I know he isnt someone like that. I'm juz contridicting myself. he's been assuring me since juz nw but the thout juz came into my mind again and again..

Why do I feel this way ? I really hate it ! I juz wish i can turn back time and not cause myself so much misery...

2005-09-16T16:27:00.000-07:00

Juz got up from my beauty sleep. Last nite was the 2nd nite being a guard and I'm so glad tat the gate is being repaired now.

Dearie was so tired he fell asleep ard 4 plus and I was the only one wide awake in the house. I could even hear different snoring rhythms from the different rooms. =x

Watched Tv till I finally fell asleep around 6 plus. Guess it is much safer to rest when day breaks. sigh. I'm a lil traumatized by whole incident. I was all alone in the day for the past 2 days and I didnt dare to close my eyes for a short nap thought I'm realli drained. I was constantly looking out of the door viewer to ensure that there is no one outside. Am I being too paranoid. The moment I knew daddy was home , I fell into a deep sleep immediately.

Woke up around 8 den went down wif dearie to get dinner for his family.

I'm getting a lil sleepy again but I gotta stay up to wait for my bro to get me my Mcdonals.. *yumyum*

2005-09-15T14:17:00.000-07:00

Just when I thout dearie would be able to have a nice and peaceful rest after the cremation yesterday,some bastards/jerk/fcuker/ass/mofo or the most isuitable word that we all know is BURGLAR broke into his house.

Guess wad was their motive, the money that was meant to pay for the funeral donated by the ppl who came to pay their respect. How cruel and evil can humans be. __ them. wad more it occured in the NOON !?!?! Can u imagine hw unsafe it already is in broad daylight not to even mention when nite falls.. Dunnoe wad the hell their neighbours were doing..they must have made alot of noise when they were trying to prey open the long aluminium gate and the wooden door.

When I went over to his place last nite...I was astonished at the sight of the door. They must have put in lotsa effort coz there were alot of marks left behind on the wooden door. But i guess they were rather fortunate that the sum of money was not stolen coz his dad was clever enuf to bring it along wif him when they left for the cremation in the morning.Anyway they suspect tat the burglars muz have been some insiders who have attended the wake.haix. The burglars made away wif some valuable .Cash, his dad's mobile, his mom's jewellery,alot of watches including mine =( ,his bro's bike's key and the worst tink was 3 passports and his mum's IC. sigh..pray hard tat they would be kind enuf not use the IC to borrow $$ from loan sharks.

The police was called over immediately and they manage to get some prints hopefully some of it would provide clues to nab the burglars. but i doubt chances would be high. Went over to dearies hse last nite to accompany him to guard the door coz neither both doors could be locked. Could see from his mum's look that she is extremely tired and worn out yet she kept waking up after a while coz she was so upset and vexed. Dearie manage to coax her to slp and she woke up again ard 6 plus in the morning. Decided to go home to catch some rest ard 7. Woke up in less than 3 hours. now i feel fatigue. Guess I need some rest soon..

Anyway peepz...do take extra precaution alrite. I used to love to watch crime watch but never did I expect it to happen to my beloved one. It seemed so drama in the past but not anymore. sigh. The world is getting uglier and uglier. It's unpredictable wad would happen to us next. sigh...

Take Care Everyone

2005-09-13T22:15:00.000-07:00

Indescribable Loneliness

2005-09-12T19:02:00.000-07:00

I'm super duper uber ..... B.O.R.E.D

argh...it's raining cats and dogs outside..nice day to snuggle up cozy in bed wif my love one but...

anyway..waiting for xing and vivian to drop by my hse..

*yawnz*